More nudges from God

By Betty Hertz

I participated in the 20-day Reconciliation Community Challenge in April. All the sessions were informative, but the one presented by Pastor Parker entitled "I want to be an antiracist" has been simmering in my mind and my soul. I thought not being a racist was the same as being an antiracist. In his message, Pastor Parker said, "antiracist is when people actively seek not only to raise awareness but turn awareness into action." While increasing my awareness of my racism, I feel God nudging me to act. 

 Not one to let me rest for long, God tapped me on the shoulder as I worked on an assignment for the Leading Public Prayer class. The project was to write a lament about a local church or community issue, referring to Psalms as examples of laments. Immediately the brokenness of the Anchorage community came to mind, as did the words from Pastor Parker.

I also discovered I still held anger over a past racist event. I was with a friend when she shouted: "get a job" to a homeless person! I didn't do or say anything that day. I hid my shame and anger. Today I believe I would reach out to the homeless person with compassion, and I would share my disapproval of my friend's actions. Thinking about Pastor Parker's message and about that past incident, I wrote this lament.

A Lament for a Broken Community

God of all humanity,
You created all in your image
Your steadfast love sustains us.

We turn to you as we experience the hate in our community.
The division is deep. 
We suffer with the homeless
who can't find housing or mental health assistance. 
Our hearts are heavy, and we feel powerless to understand those who
don't show compassion and don't want to work together.

Where are you, God? How long must the division go on?
The comfortable shout angrily at the less fortunate.

Silence those who cry out, "Get a job!"
Stop the "not in my neighborhood" mentality.

Great Healer,
We know You will continue to guide us.
We know You will teach us how to be reconcilers.
Thanks be to you, O, God!

Betty Hertz is a longtime member of St John UMC, a Stephen Minister and a member of SPRC. When not doing volunteer work, she is playing with her three goofy dogs.

Reflection: The Holy Meal

By Betty Hertz

Our monthly communion observance will be happening on Sunday. Have you thought about the words of the service, or do you find yourself just saying the words? I've experienced it both ways. Recently, I took a Be A Disciple course, "Come to the Table." I don't think I can view the sacrament casually anymore.

What changed? As I looked at all parts of the communion service, I learned the significance of each element. I learned the table is God's table with God as the host, we are the community, and the minister is the presider. Communion is more than the Last Supper and Christ's sacrifice; he shared meals with disciples often. The Holy Meal provides a reminder of all those times.

In talking with Pastor Emily, she shared that the Great Thanksgiving is an extended prayer to God. As I read through it, I asked, "How have I missed that?" Some phrases that reminded me are:

"You have formed us in your image."

"Your love remained steadfast."

"You delivered us from captivity."

"We praise Your name."

"by Your Spirit make us one with Christ."

I also learned that if I view communion through the presider's actions, four physical acts are performed: taking, blessing, breaking, and sharing. I haven't thought about the significance of those motions that our pastor goes through. Taking the elements from the table, blessing them, breaking the bread, and sharing the elements as we read the words of the Great Thanksgiving remind me of the hymn “One Bread, One Body” (UMH, p.620):

One bread, one body, one Lord of all,

One cup of blessing which we bless.

And we, though many throughout the earth,

We are one body in this one Lord.

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for welcoming all to participate in The Holy Meal. Help me to grow in my journey with you by being more centered on this gift of bread and vine. In Jesus' name. Amen

Betty Hertz is a longtime member of St John UMC, a Stephen Minister and a member of SPRC. When not doing volunteer work, she is playing with her three goofy dogs.

An Invitation

By Betty Hertz

I invite you to submit reflections to the St. John blog. As you know, I have been contributing to the blog.  I let go of the thought that I had nothing to share and of the fear of being vulnerable when writing for publication. I trusted God to give me the words. After taking the risk, I found my soul feeling peaceful, and I know it came from taking time to reflect on my faith and listen for God’s guidance.

Now I know that some of you are saying: “I have nothing to share.” I know that isn’t true. You listen to sermons, attend Sunday School, read books, have favorite hymns and scripture passages that resonate with you. I also know you have experiences and thoughts to share that might help others. Jesus calls us to be witnesses of the Word. Sharing thoughts in writing is one way to witness.

 I know that you are saying: “I am not a good writer.” I found an excellent computer program, Grammarly, which makes suggested corrections for spelling, punctuation and wordiness.  I use it every time I write for public sharing.

 A scripture reading that helps me let go of fear is Isaiah 41:10

Do not fear, for I am with you,

Do not be afraid, for I am your God;

I will strengthen you; I will help you

I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.

 Are you ready to let go of the fear and taking your witnessing public? I am happy to help any time.

Betty Hertz is a longtime member of St John UMC, a Stephen Minister and a member of SPRC. When not doing volunteer work, she is playing with her three goofy dogs.

Post-Lenten Reflection: Fasting is over! Is it?

By Betty Hertz

Lamentations 3:22-24 (NRSV)

22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases,
    his mercies never come to an end;
23 they are new every morning;
    Great is your faithfulness.
24 "The Lord is my portion," says my soul,
    "Therefore, I will hope in him."

As I thought about past Lenten seasons, I recalled people rejoicing when they could finally do whatever they had "given up" for Lent. I reread what fasting involves. John Wesley believed in fasting once a week to express sorrow for sin and to seek forgiveness. He also believed that by doing this, more time for praying became available. If giving up something created more time to focus on God, why go back to previous practices that interfered with that?

I am reminded in Lamentations, "the love of the Lord never ceases." My thinking is if that love never ceases, then I should continue in what my fasting involved. This Lent, I "gave up" intermittent contact with God to have intentional contact with God.  I changed from my brief quick prayers and fast readings of scripture to a set time to quiet my mind and let God into my heart. Out of this intentional time with God grew my journaling and reflections.

Is my fasting over? No – in my heart, I have found a sense of peace that I'm not willing to let end. I want to focus on who I am, who I can be, and who God is calling me to be (modified from Pastor Andy's list).

What am I doing moving forward? When I took the Lay Servant Basic course and the Preaching course, I discovered the website BeaDisciple.com. The site offers online classes for anyone who's interested in new experiences in their spiritual journey. This discovery has led me to seek more courses to go deeper into my faith. Monday, I started "Come to the Table," which focuses on finding deeper meaning in the communion service. I thank God that learning and growing in faith never stops.

Faithful and loving Father, help me to live the words of Psalm 51:10 "create in me a clean heart, O God, and put a new and right spirit within me." Amen

Betty Hertz is a longtime member of St John UMC, a Stephen Minister and a member of SPRC. When not doing volunteer work, she is playing with her three goofy dogs.

Lenten Reflection: What happened on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday?

By Betty Hertz

Just when I think I have some questions answered, more surface. I thought about Holy Week as I was copying a paper cross to share with some friends. The cross was a palm leaf made into a cross with the cross empty. Well, that's easy - Palm Sunday to Easter in one image. That is when I paused. I know Palm Sunday, Maundy Thursday, Good Friday, Saturday night vigil, and Easter, but what about the early part of the week?

In rereading Matthew 21-28, I discovered I had blended one day into another without any thought to each day's significance. By rereading, I separated the activities of Jesus during each day. Not all Biblical scholars agree about the days' division, but viewing each day gives me more understanding.

On Monday, Jesus returns to Jerusalem and cleanses the temple of those selling and buying in the temple. Matthew 21:13 "It is written 'my house shall be called a House of prayer'; But you are making it a den of robbers."  He also cured the blind and lame who came to him in the temple, and then he returned to Bethany.

 On Tuesday, Jesus returns to Jerusalem. He meets with the upset temple leaders. They question him, and, in true Jesus style, he turns the questions on them. Then he starts teaching by sharing several parables that we are familiar with: The Two Sons, The Wicked Tenants, The Wedding Banquet. The leaders unsuccessfully tried to trick him by asking him more questions. He returned to Bethany.

On Wednesday, Jesus spent the day in Bethany with his disciples doing more teaching (Matthew 24-26). This day is also known as "Spy Wednesday" because this was the day when Judas conspired to hand Jesus over. When Mary of Bethany visited Jesus, she anointed him with a costly oil:

 8 But when the disciples saw it, they were angry and said, "Why this waste? 9 For this ointment could have been sold for a large sum, and the money given to the poor." 10 But Jesus, aware of this, said to them, "Why do you trouble the woman? She has performed a good service for me. 11 For you always have the poor with you, but you will not always have me. (Matthew 8-11)

Holy Week — a week of cleansing, teaching, sharing, and preparing.

Prayer for Wednesday of Holy Week from the Book of Worship 348:

Most merciful God, Your blessed Son, our Savior, was betrayed, whipped, and his face spat upon. Grant us grace to endure the sufferings of the present time, to overcome all that seeks to overwhelm us, confident of the glory that shall yet be revealed. Through Jesus Christ our Redeemer. Amen

Betty Hertz is a longtime member of St John UMC, a Stephen Minister and a member of SPRC. When not doing volunteer work, she is playing with her three goofy dogs.